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3 years.

I can’t believe it’s been 3 years.

I can’t believe it.

I can’t believe it.

I can’t believe it.

Always the case

I thought as I got older the gap would close in, that I would be at least consistent in some way. I thought I would get better at focusing, at listening. It’s always 50-50. Parallel. Unchanging.

Right before they keep telling me I’m so smart, there’s a laundry list of dumb things I have done. I can’t argue with them, ever. With any one. I can’t tell ‘em they are wrong, cause well, now I see it too! So I guess now the only thing I can do is prove us all wrong.

Of course… I am going to have to do a little bit of repair work… but one thing at a time. Anything, anything START to FINISH.

Spongey

It’s easier to think the world is against you. It’s easier to be misunderstood and leave it at that. It’s easier to not argue and simply state the way it is in the way that you, specifically, state it.

But it’s much more beautiful to strive to explain it. To fully translate your statement to the masses in a manner that’s understandable and willing to expand or contract.

Don’t be shy to expand or contract. Don’t be afraid to live as a sponge. Don’t dread wrong or right or different.

Who has time for enough sleep?

Not this guy.

I don’t want to jinx this but…

I can’t believe it’s actually happening. My muscles are finally relaxing after 8 months of being tense constantly, they are finally remembering where they need to be.

Holy shit. I really felt like there was no hope for a little while there. I have to do my best to keep them in good condition.

This is not going to be a good month for me.

For a variety of reasons that I just can’t even get into right now or I might freak out.

I guess you can say I have been doing things a bit differently these past few months. Change is annoying so I am glad I haven’t noticed too much while it’s been happening.

Things change and get strange with the movement of time. It’s happening, right now, to you.

My Plan

Sleep. A lot.

Progress

Moving forward is definitely one of those things that is hard to acknowledge when it is really happening. I am not sure where exactly I am headed… But I’m much more okay about it than before.

And so I go out Friday night
And talk to anyone I can
If they can see me they can hear me
Run my mouth

I only really need a couple hours anyway.

….
Tomorrow might suck.